My therapist says that everyone in my life has abandoned me when they all promised to stay or promised some sort of something that leaves me heartbroken to where I take things to heart. It is a combination of leaving, lying, false promises, leading on, cheating, deception, and sudden mind changes. He said I take things personal because I don’t have a family to back up my reassurances to always be there for me so I lack a permanent base of love. I don’t have a home base to go to when love fails, or when friends deceive me, or when I need home base needs. He said a friend like me is so good because I treat my friends like people would treat their family. I am devoted, sincere, giving , and communicative. I rely on how I feel and I rely on saying how I feel so it helps me help others understand. My therapist says I am very smart and don’t need to worry about people who use me and knowingly disrespect me. He said I have every right to be upset and to ask for answers to understand why things happened they way they did and why it was so hard for her to be my friend. He said excuses are signs she isn’t telling the truth. He said anyone would question motives if they were in my.position and that I shouldn’t let her make me feel bad for second guessing, esp since she gives me no reason to believe her she dosent make efforts to meet me half way. He said it’s just I don’t want to believe she can do that to me intentionally. He’s right.
I wish she would call me and just talk to me. She has the stitches and the glue if she made it up to me to help me understand that maybe I am wrong in how I feel Like prove to me she wants to be my friend than what she shows me that she hates my guts. Whyy cannnt she do that? Maybe she has no heart.